Wednesday, December 3, 2008

The beginning of Hypomania

Why did I start this blog? Maybe to vent behind closed doors or maybe to self-medicate. Life is so confusing and I want someone to provide me with the answers, but nobody can. I'm the small insect fighting against the sinking water of the tub. I'm trying to escape but the spinning water continues to pull me deep into the abyss.

I don't know how long I'll write. Maybe this project will be tucked away like so many in my past. It can take residence beside the homemade jam stand I started in my youth, or next to the scooter I bought and never rode. It was such a good idea at the time but now it collects cobwebs. Cobwebs make sense. They've filled my mind for so long and I'm not sure if these thoughts are my own.

Maybe today is a good day to stop taking my meds. I need my thoughts back but the medications steal them from me. Maybe the doctors are wrong. Maybe they are the ones in need of medication. Maybe humans are supposed to think this way.

Maybe...

8 comments:

Girl Interrupted said...

Welcome to blogging:) I think that you will find, that writing about things is very helpful. I hope it helps you the way it has helped me.-V

One Hypo said...

Thank you, Girl. I love your blog. I hope writing helps me release my frustration.

svasti said...

Yes, welcome to our online bloggy world, where you'll find many others dealing with their crappyness by venting in words... and in pixels...

Likewise, I've found blogging to be very helpful and I'm made a whole bunch of bloggy friends I'm not sure I'd be happy to forgo now! That in itself might be enough reason to keep blogging for me...

But really, I find writing helps get things out of my system, and launching them into cyber-space helps me see how much others relate... which tells me in the end I'm not so alone.

:)

cennia said...

Hi,welcome to blogger world. Don't be sad girl !..
Your life will much meaningful if you can share something to others. One one knows the end of our life, just God, so be happy...

Christa said...

Svasti is right (and she often is).

Blogging is a helpful thing. You are sooooooooooooo not alone. You've got lots of support here.

Don't Give Up! Giggle On!

One Hypo said...

Thank you for all the words of encouragement. I appreciate all of it.

Cassoulet Cafe said...

AS someone who KNOWS...stay on your meds, and KEEP BLOGGING. It does help. My blog is full of venting. Cobwebs don't seem good, but they serve their purpose....

sparrowsoul said...

i love your blog...! i can relate to you... very cool... i have one, too... i need to keep it up more, though... you have inspired me to write a new post tomorrow... or monday...